A Mass of Contradictions

I want to escape my mind.

There are a lot of strange things going on in my thoughts, and sometimes they are completely out of my control. That’s what’s going on tonight. 

I really don’t consider myself addicted to anything. And medicine is medicine if it helps, right? 

And I’m not being picky. Couple of Xanax! Bottle of cheap alcohol! Neither is expensive or hard to get, and when you use them together the effects are increased tenfold. (btw, I wouldn’t recommend mixing the two if you haven’t been regularly exposed to xanax in the past)

ALL I have here are bottles of Delsym, and it’s not the best high or escape or best anything really…

I’m just trying to stay here and not do anything weird. 
I want to stop thinking. Please.